Elementary, Junior High, or High School?

It's 1:30 a.m. and I cannot sleep!! I don't know why. It's just been one of those nights where my mind will not stop thinking about things whether it is something small like my 5 page book report due on Wednesday, the emissions test I have to take the car for, or what I want to do for my career. I started out wanting to be a kindergarten teacher because it seemed (to me) like the easiest grade to deal with. The kids are cute, happy (or nervous) to be in school for the first time and they are learning how to socialize. Then I thought, well, maybe I want to be able to have a stronger relationship with my students and work in the 4th or 5th grade. Then again, that is bordering the age where kids can get rough and are more difficult to work with. I've sat in a kindergarten, 3rd, and 5th grade classroom. I cannot tell you which one I liked the most. I suppose I can get insecure. I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to teach these kids or that they won't like me. I run into this insecurity a little bit with the kids I'm teaching on Wednesday nights for church. They are so rowdy and it is difficult to keep their attention! Ben said something to me one night after I had talked to him about the class that for the first time since high school, it made me second guess if this is what I want to do. I still want to stay in education. I love the idea of teaching others, investing in their lives, and having summers off! haha. Then a part of me gets stuck on my whole notion that I only want to teach for two years and then start having children. I suppose I shouldn't be quick to form "plans" for the future like that because who knows where God will lead me. (Not saying that I'm not going to have kids!) Anyway, to the point. I think I may want to be a high school English teacher. I'm not the best at writing, but I do enjoy it when I am able to do it on my own terms. This year, I took my first English class since I have been in college and I am now a junior. Anyway, I have an AMAZING professor!!!!!! I cannot get over how brilliant she is! She is the type of professor that if I knew other classes she taught, I would take them as electives simply to be in her classes. I love the class and enjoy all the analyzing and writing we do that I really am thinking about teaching English. This is ironic that I am even thinking this because up until this class, the thought of taking an English class petrified me! I HATE writing papers. Somehow for this class, it all just flows. I'm not saying it is easy, but I enjoy it! I enjoy doing the research and all the hard work! I wrote a 6 page paper with an ease I had never experienced before!! (I know that if my brother is writing this he is groaning because he cannot leave a comment about how dorky I am!!!) Oh, I also would enjoy teaching high school because I loved high school! It is so much fun! I could experience homecoming every year again! I also would be able to make a bigger impact on kid's lives. I know a lot of my high school teachers were always there for me. I want to be able to do the same for others. I know it would be a big task if I suddenly decided this is what I want to do, but if it is what God wants me to do, then it will work out. This is the first time that I'm seriously considering this so I have no clue what God wants. I did just apply for the elementary education program this semester and had my interview for it on Wednesday. I guess if I don't get accepted, I could take it as a sign to go into high school English? Besides, English is something that just seems to run in the Belcher girls blood. I mean, Cherie has this ridiculous love for words, and I think Annie and Ronda majored in English. . . I don't think Alaina or Cindy particularly care for English. . . that I know of at least. haha. I looked up what classes I'd still need to take and if I switch majors, I'm going to be in school forever!!!!!!!!!! It would probably be 3 more years! Yikes! I wish there was an easy way to figure all this stuff out. It would be great if I could just flip a coin and that would solve all major questions in life.

Well.... I think I have lost my desire to continue writing for the night. I should try to sleep, I have to work in the morning.

God, I hope you tell me what I should do!


Amen!

Relaxing Sundays

I am so glad it is Sunday. I'm finally able to just kick back and relax. However, from now on, I will have much more time to relax. I quit my waitressing job. My management was horrible! I only worked weekends (Friday and Saturday) so every weekend I would work at least 20 hours in two days! I was working way too hard for not enough money. I would get so tired from just working in the weekend that for the rest of the week, I felt exhausted. On top of going to school and working for Ben's father too. I work two days a week in his dad's office doing the cleaning and paying bills, etc. I think Ben and I will actually be able to save some money now that I quit my waitressing job. When I had it, I never had time to cook or do much cleaning. So, we spent a lot on fast food and the condo just remained dirty. Although Ben would do laundry for me every Wednesday. He has every Wednesday off, but he usually spends it working with our Pastor.

I'm relaxing right now at my in-laws, it is nice. They have a beautiful home and it actually feels like home to me as well. Of course, my parent's house and Missouri will always be more "home" to me. My relaxing will come to an end pretty soon though. I have two papers to write. I also need to prepare for my interview for admission into the education program at school.

Other than that, there isn't anything exciting to report. I've decided I might spend some time watching the t.v. show, How I Met Your Mother, does anyone watch that show? I love it!

Pictures of my New Home :)

I'm Joining the Crowd...

Since all my cousins have blogs, I figure I am going to give it a shot too! Besides, it is a great way to keep in touch and see what is going on in everybody's lives. I am still new to this blogger, and I am not quite sure how to operate it, but I know I will get the hang of it.

To start off with, for those of you who do not know, Ben went to school to be a pastor. We just went through a four day assessment in Minneapolis, MN to see if we are ready to start a church (from scratch!) in his hometown, Mequon, WI. We did not get the okay for right now, but in two years we should be able to start the church. Honestly, I am glad that we did not get the okay to start with it right now. Ben and I both need time to develop our ministries and get involved in church. Ben is going to get opportunities to preach where we attend church right now, New Life, in Cedarburg, WI.

Other news to update my life: Ben and I bought a condo!!! It's small but has a nice sized kitchen. I love it here and it is beautiful. We were blessed to have a fire at 3:30 in the morning (don't worry nothing big...it was only a small fire in the dumpster) and it gave us the opportunity to meet all of our neighbors, haha!!!


That is all I'll say for now. I'll work on getting more updates soon!!